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1. The Pet Blue Fish and Marc Friedman's Version

11/7/2012

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i want to tell You the story of The Pet Blue Fish

The last record I made, WHEN SMART GIRLS DO STUPID THINGS, was, in many ways, a self-parody, an embodiment of my process around failed relationship.  The ultimate super-ego character of the record was personified as a Pet Blue Fish.  During my process of writing the music for the album I'd wanted, symbolically, to buy a pet blue fish.  I'd realized that I needed some practice in how to let something go after it had been "mine", so I arrived with a plan:  
I was going to get a glass bowl and nothing would be inside it but the Fish and water.  I'd name the fish "I Don't Care If You Leave Me."  So I could say "Hello, I Don't care If you leave Me" and "I'm going to feed you, I Don't Care If You Leave Me." etc.  And then I would feed it (probably overly-much, as my hands are strong and messy, likely moving too fast, spilling the parallelogram-shaped flakes irretrievably into the lukewarm water).  One day the Blue Fish would randomly die, and I'd simply flush it down the toilet, and that would be that.  No sadness, no attachment.  The Blue Fish was going to be a practice on How To Feed Something Too Much and Not Care When It Dies.  
But I couldn't find the exact right kind of plain blue fish in the pet stores in Barcelona, where I was living.
One of the last times I met an ex-boyfriend at a cafe, after uncomfortable, poetically-suspended minutes, after I'd melted into a wooden chair, with gluey tears like sap on my cheeks, unable to drink my latte, or to say anything that bore weight--- I managed to leave, asking him to walk me to the Pet Shop, so I could buy a Blue Fish.  

For the record, I wrote a simple dialogue of the moment I'd asked the ex-man to walk me to the Pet Store to buy The Blue Fish, as a brief scene in some sort of Film Noire-like movie.  I had a few of my favorite Barcelona-residing couples who were in partnerships where each person spoke a different native language read the dialogue, each in their individual mother tongue, but as though they were having a conversation. I wanted to portray how two people can emotionally be apparently so close but nowhere near the other. 



There is this version where you can listen/buy the track
PET BLUE FISH:
http://music.lesliehelpert.com/track/the-blue-fish-pet
You can buy it for a dollar.
& At the top right of this blog post, you can find Marc Friedman's re-mix/version, one of my very favorite musicians:

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Michael link
4/14/2019 02:54:07 pm

Blue fish :)

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